My Dear Black Swan, My Dear Joan of NC, My Dear Lioness, My Dear Angel,

YES. I do have fallen in love with your beautiful mind and soul and your passion. You are my positive Black Swan. I would love to continue exchange our thoughts and feelings. But you are right. Why are you so wise? Why do you think about consequences of our steps?

I love my beautiful and wise wife and my sons, I do, but because of my investments in stock markets and my 'second' life on this forum I have started loosing contact with them and spending most of my free time analysing shares and looking for information. This is my 'second' life, but this is not sustainable. Money is not worth missing time with my family. I have decided to leave this forum and do not take my investments so seriously. I need money to educate my sons at the best universities, but I can find another solution, e.g. my company in the future. I have to cross the Rubicon and join the dark side of the business force :-).

PLEASE, I BEG YOU. I am sorry. I did not want to hurt you or be dishonest. Do not change your life, do not leave this forum, because of me. I am not worth doing this !!!! You do love Krakow and your friends, including those from this forum and they love you. Could you exchange them for the oil rig? Could you punish them because of me?

An the most important. You are not alone: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAyKJAtDNCw. You are so beautiful mind and soul. You have your friends, books, movies, work, students, hobbies, passions ... You are amazing.

If I could only meet you earlier somewhere in time or live in different culture, but ....
Please follow your Legend and 'and when you want something, all the universe conspire in helping you to achieve it' and 'when you want something with all your heart, that is when you are closest to the Soul of the World. It is always a positive force'. (The Alchemist)

I will be conspiring in helping you to achieve your happiness !!! I will be thinking about and praying for you.

My last poem by Halina Poświatowska for you:

chcę pisać o tobie
twoim imieniem wesprzeć skrzywiony płot
zmarzłą czereśnię
w twoich ustach
składać strofy wygięte
o twoich rzęsach kłamać że czarne
chcę
wplątać palce w twoje włosy
znaleźć wgłębienie na szyi
gdzie stłumionym szeptem
serce zaprzecza ustom
chcę
twoje imię z gwiazdami zmieszać
z krwią
być w tobie
nie być z tobą
zniknąć
jak kropla deszczu którą wchłonęła noc

I' would like to wish a Happy Christmas and all the best for 2012. I do hope that you will find your Legend and follow it. YOU DESERVED IT !!!

Good bye my my beloved Black Swan, Joan of NC, Lioness, Angel, Krecia (Karolina)

Your forever Niccolo